It’s kind of ironic, post covid-19, I was struggling with a feeling of being alone. That being said, I started evening walks at the Riverwalk with anyone who wanted to come out and walk. A friend of mine invited me to Thursday Trivia nights and it was fun. I started feeling good about everything.
…but then Covid! The night before everything closed, I walked the Riverwalk with a couple of people and then went over to play trivia. There was some small tables and I just asked people if they wanted to join my small group. We took 1st place in trivia that night! But just like that, the walks ended, trivia was cancelled and I struggled. I still posted my walks but it was as if everyone dropped off the face of the earth.
I go through times when I am introverted and I also experience times when I am extroverted. During the early stages of Covid-19 I wanted the company of the human race! I really went through a depression as time went on. It’s ironic, I thought about this a few weeks ago, I really should have blogged, I should have typed away about my struggles so that other people would see that they are not the only ones out there that are struggling. Heck, I’m still struggling! I just want to get back to normalcy!
When I got my second covid vaccine, I experienced a nervous energy, there was light at the end of the tunnel! Life would return as we knew it! There still seems to be trepidation with some people. I go out on my own sometimes, hitting a trail or going for a walk. It seems as though more and more people are venturing outside! It is exciting to see! The only question I have, why do I feel like I’m still depressed, while I hate to compare it to PTSD… I’ve been feeling out of sorts lately. I had a panic attack while driving. It’s been a good 15 years since I experience that dread. I wonder if I ever blogged about my panic/anxiety attacks I had years ago. Maybe I will go back and look.
Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that if you are going through some rough times, you are not alone. I know I will get through it and you will too. When I started this blog, I was out of the doldrums and working on making myself a better person. I need to recapture that! Hopefully I can blog more often and we can all get out of our doldrums together 🙂